Happy New Year!

oiy!

what a year - right??

Here's the thing...  Last New Year's Eve was quite possibly the happiest night of my life.  I thought that everything from there on out was going to be cake.  crumb cake.  I had the man of (what I thought was) my dreams and the perfect almost step-kid and all the future plans and promises that went along with the fairy tale and the illusion that anything is possible if you're together.

That is... until I found out that it was all a big lie.

And then the rest of the year has been a roller coaster of emotions and drama set into place by one, single night and the snowball effect that it created for me.

The good news is... It's over and done with.  and I'm still free to do whatever I want!!  and please believe... I do!!  :D  *evil grin*

I caught myself doing something this week that I haven't done in a very, very  long time.  Dancing in my truck to the radio.  I honestly don't remember the last time I did that.  and it was FANTASTIC!!  It was warm out and Pink was on the radio and I was in a good mood and it was like all the planets aligned in a perfect way and ... *sigh*  it was just amazing to jam like I used to.  I felt more like myself than I've felt in a very long time!

Here's what I'm thinking!  I'm going to spend New Year's Eve gettin' kinda smashed.  Really.  Honestly, I don't really want to think about last New Year's Eve.  Or this year, for that matter...  That said, I have actually made a few plans beyond just New Years Eve.  I'm turning over a new leaf: The old me is back. Car dancing, and all!  And along with that is my 22 credit semester plus work and hopefully another gym membership (I really miss the gym...)

SO!  here, here!!  a toast to new beginnings....